First of all, thank you so much for your encouragement, prayers, and for posting! I really appreciate them all!
Tomorrow I have an appointment with my Napro doctor. I am bringing my Creighton chart as well as a copy of my lab results from my yearly physical last week. I am afraid what this doctor might say to me. He is not going to be very happy that I haven't lost any more weight since I last saw him this past summer. I think I gained back five to eight pounds. I am not sure he is going to understand that due to the lack of fertility signs, the skipping of periods, the fear of peri-menopause, and my dreams of motherhood floating away that I haven't been feeling very happy. I have been feeling very anxious, sad, and discouraged. Just like many people, when I'm feeling this way I reach for foods and drinks (Pepsi!)to make me feel better. I know, not good. I fear when they weigh me and he sees that I gained back a little weight, he will be giving me a little speech. I'm also wondering what he is going to say when he sees all the green stickers on my chart and the lack of the white baby stickers. Peri-menopause? Maybe PCOS? Unfortunately I've been suffering from anxiety just thinking about my visit with this doctor and what he might tell me especially after looking at my Creighton chart and hormone report. I have both in my possession and they do not look very good fertility wise. Both seem to tell me that my hormones are NOT at the right levels for being able to conceive. I have known for awhile now that my progesterone levels were not that great, but now it looks like my estrogen levels are decreasing too. Can this explain all the headaches and crying episodes I've been having? I am not sure. This is probably a good question to ask the doctor tommorow.
Could you please pray for me that this doctor can help me and give me some encouraging news? I really need to hear something positive, something encouraging. Thank you so much!
On a happy note, tomorrow on the way to the Napro doctor's office we are going to make a stop in my old hometown and visit my old co-workers and friends from the daycare I worked at as a teacher for nineteen years! I am really looking forward to seeing them! I haven't seen most of them for two years now!
Thinking of you and praying for all of you!
May God Bless you all!