It happened again. No period. MIA.
Not sure what to do.
Last time this happened in November, I waited a little while to see if it would make an appearance. When it didn't arrive, I took ten days worth of progesterone suppositories. This is what my Napro doctor recommended I do in April after my period didn't show up after my second surgery.
I am pretty sure I am not pregnant. No symptoms again except the MIA period. I wonder could this be due to my age? 43? Or my bad diet? Too many Pepsi's? I love Pepsi and anything with sugar. It makes me feel better.
My Napro doctor wants me to do a hormone series to see if I might have PCOS, but I probably have to wait until the Spring. Why? Because we are an one car family and I don't drive. My work place is only down the street from our condo. I usually walk home from work in good weather or ride my bike. However winter is in full force right now with lots of snow on the ground so walking and riding the bike to the doctor's office (within biking distance - I've done it many times before!) is NOT an option right now.
This is so frustrating, but unlike in November I am not letting myself get upset over this. It's difficult though because without ovulating and a regular period, how can we conceive a child? I can't. I know that. It seems what little fertility I might have had in my first two years of marriage, is now dwindling even further.
I now see my only option for becoming a Mother is foster adoption or adoption, but even that won't be easy. Hubby tells me all the time we don't have the $$$ to adopt. I have heard when you foster adopt the state will pay for it, but I do not know much about that.
Isn't it awful? For my arms and heart to long so much for a child, but for some reason it is nearly impossible for me to be able to conceive? And my only option seems to be adoption, but we don't have the necessary $$ to adopt? So heartbreaking! Truly heartbreaking!
Okay, I better go now before I start crying. I thought I was doing better not letting myself be sad or discouraged over this, but I guess maybe I'm not.
It's just so....well, heartbreaking to me! I want so much to be a Mother!
There just HAS to be some way for me to be able to become a Mother....please God and the Blessed Mother?
Well, I'll keep on praying!
May God Bless you!