Hubby and I traded in our white Ford Ranger two seater truck and bought a black Dodge Caravan this past weekend. We love our new wheels!
Hubby and I are still hoping and praying to be able to conceive on our own. Unfortunately this past year since my last surgery in April 2009, my cycles have been a mess. I skipped a few cycles, had some strange spotting inbetween cycles a few times, sometimes my cycles are the normal 26-28 days I used to have, but now sometimes my cycles go 29-32 days, and I do not see much mucus. Are these signs of being peri-menopausal? Also does anybody know what spotting inbetween cycles usually mean? Does spotting ever happen to any of you other ladies diagnosed with endometriosis? The first time it happened in October 2009 it freaked me out! The second time it happened it freaked me out too!
I might have to have an ultrasound done (I am pretty sure I have developed more ovarian cysts/endometriomas again, which probably means another surgery! Something I am NOT looking forward to! I've already had two surgeries to remove endometriosis and bilateral endometriomas!), but I do not want to go see a main stream OB/GYN who will probably give me the speech I need birth control pills or need to go see an infertility doctor who will tell me the only way I'm going to be able to get pregnant is through artificial means. I won't take birth control pills and I won't try artificial means to get pregnant. I won't do anything that could possibly harm a potential new life, abort a new life getting ready to implant, or cause hubby and I to lose our souls and heaven. There's just no way. Even though I had a good cry for myself this past weekend, I am trying so hard to pick up my rosary, pray, and trust God. I know God can do the impossible. He can do miracles! Look what happened to "All You Who Hope" and "Sew" - they're both pregnant with miracle babies! Maybe someday the same thing can happen to me?
Yeah, but I think I need to lose some weight, start exercising, and eat better. I'm trying! I'm really trying!
By the way, I'm praying for all you new Mothers to Be, new Mothers through Adoption (Hubby and I are looking into foster care and adoption, but we don't know anything about either! We also don't have the funds to be able to adopt right now either! We really do need a miracle especially since it looks like with my diminishing fertility and crazy cycles, it looks like the only way I will ever be able to become a Mother is through adoption! But how when you do not have enough funds?), and everyone desiring the blessing of Motherhood and the gift of a child! I'm storming heaven for all of us!
May God Bless you all!