Monday, December 1, 2014

A Little Bit About Me. Thank you for reading and praying for me! :)

Hello - welcome to my little home on the web. Glad you could visit me today. My name is Maria, I'm 48 years old, vertically challenged, and I have big hair (My nickname in college was Chaka Kahn). I met my husband Ed on a Catholic Singles website (after praying many, many, MANY rosaries especially the 54 day rosary novena) and we have been married for seven and a half (L-O-N-G years - this is a joke of our's! LOL!). We live in southeastern, Mass. in our cozy condo. Ed is a computer technician at a public school nearby. Ever since I was twelve years old, I babysat. When I graduated from college, I became a teacher at a pre-school. I have been a teacher for twenty six years now. I adore children and have always wanted my own. My heart aches so much to be a Mama, but my arms are empty.

Shortly after being married, I needed surgery to remove cysts on my ovaries. I was diagnosed at the age of forty one with endometriosis stage four. When I was in my twenties, I remember running into an old high school friend at church. She told me the story how she and her husband wanted children, but were having at difficult time trying to conceive. She mentioned she had endometriosis and she looked so sad. I remember thinking, "Endometriosis? It sounds awful! What is that?" All I knew about it was that it could prevent a woman from being unable to have children. Deep down, I think that has always been my fear - I would find my Mr. Wonderful, but we wouldn't be able to have children. I even had dreams I was pregnant and I'd wake up feeling relieved - "Oh good, that must mean that someday after I get married I will be able to have children. When I prayed my rosary asking Jesus and the Blessed Mother to please help me find a good Catholic man, I'd also pray for children in each and every rosary. I never suspected that I had the disease too or my high school friend's nightmare would happen to me too. I thought the horrible, painful, and heavy periods, the terrible pms, and awful headaches during that time of the month were normal and every girl suffered this way every month. Nobody brought up the possibility I might have endometriosis, not even my primary physician when during a cat-scan taken in my thirties for kidney stones, they discovered I had cysts on my ovaries or when I mentioned once off hand that I had very painful periods (She recommended I take "Three Aleve!"). Multiple ultrasounds over a course of several months were taken to check on the cysts. I was even sent to a GYN to check on the status of the cysts, but again nobody ever brought up the possibility I might have endometriosis until I moved to New Bedford after I was married, mentioned during a doctor's visit with my new primary physician that I was previously diagnosed with cysts on my ovaries, and that started the whole process again which led to my first surgery and then finally - a diagnosis!

I have been very blessed to find a wonderful husband, have a loving family, great friends, and a job I love. I was also blessed to have an awesome Napro doctor for many years, but he is no longer practicing (There are no Napro doctors in my area. Please pray I can find a nice Catholic pro-life doctor who is patient and kind. Thank you so much!). But what I really want deep down, is a child. Everyone tells me it is impossible for me to have a child especially at my age and because the endo wasn't discovered until such a late age. Sometimes I keep thinking: "What if I had been diagnosed earlier? Like in my twenties? Would I have a child now?" Only God knows the answer and why not. I try really hard not to think of the "what ifs" and "why we weren't blessed with a child?" because it too painful. Maybe you, my dear reader, can understand? I have been to so many doctors and specialists, have had so many tests done, prayed so many rosary novenas, and rosaries. Even though it's next to impossible, I keep hoping and praying for a miracle like St. Ann and St. Elizabeth received in the Bible. It has taken me several years to try to accept God's will. It has been such a struggle, such a heartache, a major disappointment. Before when someone would announce their pregnancy, I'd run to the bathroom and cry. I also used to cry myself to sleep. I think I've been through all the stages of grief. What has helped me to accept God's will is: praying for others especially those suffering from endometriosis, pcos, and infertility, praying the rosary which gives me such peace and comfort, praying for Mothers and Dads to accept life for their unborn babies and praying for the end of abortion, and thinking of others. It also really helps me to think of myself as a "Mother's Helper" and offering to lend a hand or two to Mother's with children, and writing. Someday I'd like to write some Catholic pro-life fiction like Carmen Marcoux.

By the way, I am open to adoption, but the problem is: 1) I don't think my husband and I can afford it. We live paycheck to paycheck. and 2) We live in a small condo. Still though, I keep praying asking Jesus and the Blessed Mother to send us a miracle, the child who needs us the most. I trust that He has heard my prayers and some kind of an answer is on the way!

Thank you so much for reading this and blessing me with being "Blogger of the Month". Your prayers are very much appreciated. Please send me an email or comment letting me know how I can pray for you. I LOVE praying for others especially those still waiting for a little one of their own, suffering from infertility, endometriosis, pcos, ect. It is such a comfort to know others are praying for me, some have similiar struggles, and I am not alone. Maybe sharing my story can help and encourage others suffering in the same way. Thank you. May God Bless you.

PS. A dear soul (but anonymous) took the time to leave me a heart felt comment in the post below this one. I understand you wish to remain anonymous, but would you consider emailing me at: prayrosary4life at aol.com? I'd love to send you a St. Gianna prayer card and a 54 day rosary novena book, if I may? Thank you! Hope to hear from you!

Love,

Maria Therese

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Lupron? Hysterectomy? I need your opinions and feedback, please!

Okay, I'm 48 years old now (nope, my dream of a child never came true. I still don't understand the whys. It hurts to think about sometimes, but I am more accepting of it now. I still cry from time to time.) and last month's period was horrible. The problem is, I am no longer under the care of my wonderful Napro doctor Dr. C. He closed his medical office to take another position. There are no Napro doctors or any Catholic doctors in my area. I had my last visit with Dr. C two weeks before he left at the end of August. He gave me a prescription for progesterone from the Pope John Institute in Omaha, NE but I have no idea how to measure out and take this progesterone prescription. He also ordered an ultrasound, on my request, but was unable to go over the results with me. I needed to schedule an appointment with my primary physician here in my city. I made an appointment and learned that my bi-lateral cysts are back for the third time, the right cyst is hemoglobic (?!) and bigger than the left one, and I need to go see a new GYN. Not having much of a choice, I opted to see a GYN who has a great personality and bedside manner, but she is not Catholic, has a bunch of magazines in her office promoting contraceptives, and she knows nothing about Napro. Of course she recommended a hysterectomy, but told me I needed "cleaning out" before such a surgery is done. She recommended I try the Lupron shot and along with it, she would prescribe the estrogen. She told me that the new finding is that patients with endometriosis have a higher risk of ovarian cancer. I was also told that no, estrogen will not encourage cancer, but if estrogen is taken with progesterone, than yes, that will make my chances of getting cancer higher. Is that really true? Has anybody tried Lupron? What are the side effects of Lupron? Do they last long after the Lupron shot wears off?

I am not sure what to do. Hysterectomy? Try the Lupron shot for three months and see what happens? Or just wait until age 51 when I probably will be in Menopause, which was her guess. I've been having signs of pre-menopause since my second surgery in '09: cycles skipping, getting longer, light periods, less cramping, feeling hot in the middle of the night, ect. A few times over the last year I've had horrible pain during my period, which used to be my normal. My last period was really horrible especially on day 3. The prescription for the Lupron shot and estrogen was already special ordered, but I have not been given it yet. I'm trying to gather some information and decide what to do. I'd really appreciate any thoughts, concerns, feedback, ect. Thank you so much! Wish we had the $$ so I could travel to have a Napro trained GYN consultation and possible surgery, but that is impossible right now. I feel stuck. I do not know what to do. The truth is, I'd really like to deal with this naturally, BUT those doctors keep trying to scare me that I might develop ovarian cancer due to the endometriosis. I also feel so tired of developing these stupid ovarian cysts, the fibroids, having the pain (not even a dumb motrin 800 took away the pain last period!),ect. over and over again. So tired of the problems, the pain, and not feeling well. I want to be done with this especially since there is basically almost no hope of my ever being able to have a baby naturally. I feel almost done. Can anybody else relate? Do you understand?

Also, if anybody has had an hysterectomy, I'd love to hear from you. How long did it take you to recover? Are you on any hormone treatments?

Thank you so much in advance! I really appreciate it.

May God Bless you all. You are all in my thoughts and prayers!

Maria

Monday, December 2, 2013

Need prayer? Or A FREE St. Gianna prayer card? Come say hello! :)

If anybody needs prayers (and if you would like to request a free St. Gianna prayer card), please leave a comment, and I will be more than happy to pray for you! If you would like a free St. Gianna prayer card, you can email me with your address and I will send you one! Hope to meet some of you and make some new blogger friends! I could really use some hugs and prayers myself! Thank you so much!

Love,

Maria In Mass

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Do you suffer from endometriosis and infertility like me? Please meet my dear friend Melissa!

Click here to purchase the BEST e-books on endometriosis I've ever bought, helped me lose weight, improved my endometriosis stage four, drastically reduced my asthma, helped me get healthy, and have a lot less pain!

A bit about Melissa from her blog:

About Me

Hi, my name is Melissa. Welcome to my blog site.

I have created this site to share my personal discoveries for natural healing for Endometriosis and hopefully help you to find alternative methods of healing, for yourself. I want to open your eyes to the true potential of being pain free and eventually Endo free. I am 90% pain free since writing this, with only minimal pain at “that time of the month”

I have been a sufferer of Endometriosis for over 15years and felt compelled to write my findings down in this blog. When I started out on my personal healing journey, I had no idea who to trust and what methods would work. I was keen to try everything and anything to make the pain and long-term prospects of having a hysterectomy go away. My endometriosis was a stage 4, which basically meant the endo had found it’s way right up into the fallopian tubes, reducing my chances of babies dramatically! My first operation was at 19years of age….

My struggle began and the techniques used to “keep the condition under control” were often worse for me. I was given all sorts of hormonal treatments, 7 operations and countless different drugs and medicines to help cure the pain and side-effects I was feeling. Most of them didn’t work. I landed up with more agony from the side-effects than actually feeling better.

I had little left to try and with hospital bills mounting, I looked at alternative methods of healing. Luckily I have discovered Tradtional Chinese Medicine, Homeopathy and various other natural methods which combined together have allowed me to reduce my symptoms and pain. My goal is to be Endo free and CURE Endometriosis completely.

I have written my full life story with Endo for you, if you scroll down a little further, you can read the whole thing :)

I would like others to join me on this quest and show other woman with Endometriosis that Curing Endometriosis is possible! This blog is here to do that! If you have lost hope of finding hope with finding a cure, I hope this site opens your eyes to a different method of healing.

There are so many of us out there with Endo and many of us who have chosen to use alternative methods to deal with Endo. Lets share it all so others can benefit and save themselves years of pain and horrible side-effects. This is me and one of my favourite wild foods – Dandelion! (I know… a little cookeee!).

Feel free to share your story with others by submitting a comment below. You may also like to sign up to my weekly newsletter, which keeps you up to date with my latest discoveries – simply fill in the form on your right.

Best of health,

Melissa

My 2 cents and recommendation:

Thanks to what I have learned from Melissa, her kindness, and encouragement, my health has improved, I've lost 25 pounds, my asthma has drastically improved, and my cycles are no longer painful! I own and highly recommend all of Melissa's e-books and products! She is one of the most caring people I know!

Hope this helps my fellow endometriosis sisters and sufferers!

May God Bless you!

Saturday, November 23, 2013

I met my husband after praying the 54 day rosary novena!

After years as a single, I prayed for several years the 54 day rosary novena asking God and the Blessed Mother to help me find a good Catholic gentleman to be my spouse. My prayers were answered! My husband and I have been now happily married for six and a half years. The 54 day rosary novena is still my favorite devotion and I have a special devotion to the Blessed Mother who is my patron saint. My husband and I are also Third Order Franciscans. I highly recommend praying this beautiful 54 day rosary novena.

I would LOVE to hear about your devotion to the rosary and what special graces you may have received from praying it? Or do you have another special devotion? I'd love to hear those too! I especially enjoy hearing stories about how you met your spouse, how you recieved the grace of motherhood, or some other special grace! These stories help increase our trust, faith, and love in Jesus and are such an encouragement!

Looking forward to hearing your stories!

Thank you so much for sharing!

You are all in my prayers! I really enjoy praying for others especially singles or for those unable to conceive for the grace of motherhood, so if you have a prayer need please let me know! I would be so happy to pray for you! You can either write your prayer request in my comment section (Please also let me know what your favorite shampoo is! I am very curious, taking a survey of sorts, and I will let you know why in a future post!)or send me an email! Thank you!

PS. Next post - St. Gianna Beretta Molla! Stay tuned!

Love,

Maria :)

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Menopause at age 45? :(

No sign of my cycle now for almost three months now. I am not sure what to do, what to think, or my feelings about this. In a way, I'm very sad about this because it seems God might be closing the door for us to be able to have biological children. Even though, the doctors always gave us a low chance of being able to concieve, I still hoped and prayed. I keep wondering, why God? Why couldn't we be blessed with a child? I don't understand. So many other ladies in their forties (I know quite a few who are the same age as I am, they still have their cycle, and are pregnant!)have been able to concieve. Why can't we? Did we do something wrong? Didn't try hard enough? I just don't understand. I did ask the Nurse Practitioner a few weeks ago when I had yet another asthma attack (every six to eight weeks it seems!)at the clinic about my disappearing cycle, we did a pregnancy test just to make sure (I refuse to buy one of those boxes for fifteen dollars only to have it turn negative on me again - what a waste of money!), and of course it was NEGATIVE, as always. The Nurse Practioner told me missing cycles is normal for age 45. Okay, but everyone I've talked to who has experienced this phenomenon of missing periods seems to be closer to 50, NOT 45! To me, at age 45, it seems I'm experiencing this a bit too young. My Mom told me she didn't experience skipped cycles until she was 50. The Nurse Practioner reminded me: "Yeah, but you have endometriosis and experienced two surgeries. Your Mom didn't." That is true. I am convinced that the second endometriosis surgery might have somehow prompted this premature menopause symptons. Extensive work was done on my ovaries, I had bi-lateral cysts on both ovaries, which were cut out of the ovaries, and my left ovary was stitched up in such a way to discourage more cysts from forming. Right after that second surgery, in the same month, that's when my cycle started disappearing on me, getting lighter, showing up some months, disappearing in other months, getting lighter, lighter, shorter, and then eventually disappearing almost three months ago. The good news is that I have lost ten pounds and given up soda. Still though, I wish, somehow, I still had a chance to try to concieve again. I'm still not ready to give up. I still dream of being a Mama. But how is that going to come true now when I do not even get a cycle? Isn't there anything I can do to try to bring it back? Trying so hard to accept God may have closed the door on my being a biological Mama, but still it hurts! What can I do?? Is God really closing the door on my being a biological Mama?? Prayers, please! Thank you so much! Email welcome at: prayrosary4life@gmail.com

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Do they know how blessed they are to be able to Be Mamas?

I have not given up totally on the hope of being able to concieve and give birth to our own child, BUT in order to do so I really need a miracle! However, I realize the odds are NOT in my favor. I regret not being more assertive in my younger years when I tried to tell my Primary Physician when I was in my thirties that I had very painful periods. The response: "Take Three Aleve!" Yes, I was sent to an OB/GYN by this same Primary Physician when it was discovered I had a cyst on my ovary after suffering from a kidney stone in 2004, but that OB/GYN did nothing. I visited her three times and all she did was give me a pelvic exam, make me take the CAT test (which scared me to death because I am NOT a dummy and knew she was testing me for ovarian cancer!), and tell me "No, you do not need surgery. We just need to keep an eye on this cyst." I can't help thinking that if I had been more assertive, opened up my big mouth, and asked for a second opinion, maybe, just maybe all the damage done to my reproductive system by the endometriosis stage four could have been lessened and just maybe, the hubby and could have been more successful in being able to concieve a child.

I also regret that when I was single, I did not take a greater interest in learning how to eat more healthy, lose weight, and exercise. When I became engaged to hubby at age forty, I remember becoming very anxious whether we would be able to have children, but somehow it never dawned on me that eating more healthy, losing weight, and exercising has such a major part in being able to concieve. Yes, I did order high quality pre-natal multi vitamins recommended by a good Catholic friend in the hopes of being able to concieve once we were married, but that wasn't enough. I needed better medical care, a primary physician who was better aware of the signs of endometriosis, and could give me a referral to a specialist who could have given me the medical help I needed. Instead I was told by the primary physician, I was "Fertile Myrtle", and I should have no problem being able to have children. Maybe if I had done that I would have been able to give my husband the children he really wanted. Maybe if I had done those things I would not be sitting here with an aching heart and empty arms.

Now I fear it's too late. I am forty five now. We were seeing a wonderful Napro doctor for three years who I really liked, but during the last visit in October 2011 Hubby spoke the fatal words that ended our visits: "We are no longer interested in fertility." He might no longer be interested in fertility, but I still am! I still take several vitamins in the hope for a miracle. I still hope and pray for a miracle - every day I've been praying the rosary, Divine Mercy Chaplet, and St. Gianna novena prayer with rosary beads touched to St. Gianna's relics.

As a woman who seems barren as a stone, it upsets me so much that other women see their fertility as a curse instead of a blessing. I know so many women who after being blessed with children, opt to have their tubes tied. What upsets me even more (to the point of tears) is when I hear men and women speak that unborn children are just globs of tissue and not people. They speak about how it's their body, their uterus, and their right to abort if they so choose. As a woman who longs for the gift of a child, but cannot concieve it pains me so. Several times after reading articles about women being pregnant with multiples, but electing for "selective abortions" I have just broken down in tears, had to leave the computer, kneel down, and cry "Why?" in front of our Divine Mercy Picture of Jesus in the living room. I pray for these women every day. I just can't understand why or how could a Mother murder her own child in the womb.

I have even encountered a few women online declaring they are planning to have abortions and have offered to adopt their babies, but are met with an indifferent, often angry response. I have noticed that if you find out someone wants to abort their child and you offer to adopt it, the angry feminists will say things like "I am not a breeder for infertile women." Can you say ouch? After encountering these kind of responses and being very hurt, I spoke to a Priest about it. He advised me to pray for these women. I do pray for them. I pray for them every day.

I have this dream where a woman who does not wish to be a Mother to the cherished child in her womb, finds me somehow, asks me if I want to adopt her child, and totally overjoyed, I tell her "Yes!" If I had my way, I would adopt every child in danger of being aborted. How I wish I could!

Maybe someday my dream will come true and I will become a Mama! It is my hope and prayer! In the meantime, I pray for all Mamas and Dads to choose and value life! I also pray for all my family and friends who are blessed to be Mamas! I hope they know how blessed they are to be able to be a Mama!