Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Another prayer to share

I prayed this for several months before the surgery when I was told by doctors they didn't know what my cyst was, that it could be cancer, and they might have to take my ovary out along with the cyst. This prayer helped give me much comfort and peace. I pray it can do the same for you.

Dear Mother of Confidence,

I come before you in my weakness and need trusting in your motherly care, and in the love of God "who has done great things" for you. I give you all my problems, my doubts, and even my sins. And I ask you to give me your own limitless confidence - in the tenderness of God, and in the power of Jesus your Son. Teach me the joy and freedom of abandoning all in His hands. Together with you may I behold God's presence and His power at work in my life. I thank you for leading me to rise above my troubles and cares. Help me to accept all that befalls me with serenity, and to ask for all I need with expectant faith; that I too may be able to see and to say that "He who is mighty has done great things...for me." Amen.

"You cannot learn this from books, you must experience it in your life, that whatever you ask Our Lady she will do.." - Mother Teresa


May God Bless you.
Maria Therese

Struggling here and praying to try to accept God's will

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile, but I've been struggling with what my new doctor told me on the phone last week. He told me that the oldest patient he had that was able to have a baby was thirty nine. I will be forty two this Saturday, August 2nd.

Did you know that when I was single without a prospect in sight praying the rosary asking for a good Catholic gentleman that at the same time I was also praying for children? It's true! I've been wanting to a wife and mother for a very long time. I prayed for many, many years for my Ed (Thank you Jesus and the Blessed Mother!) and now I'm doing the same for children.

After I met my Ed and we were engaged, I had a talk with my primary physician in my hometown and we discussed my cycle. She told me she thought I was "Fertile Myrtle" and that I would be able to conceive with no problems in my early forties despite the fact that I had to be treated for an ovarian cyst. And guess what? I believed her! She thought that because I was developing cysts that it was a sign that I was fertile. After we were married I really thought that I would be able to conceive right away. But then when months went by and nothing happened, I made an appointment here in my new city. They told me that I still had the cyst, sent me for ultrasounds to keep track of it, and when it wouldn't disappear on it's own they advised surgery. They kept telling me "Oh we don't know what this cyst is. It could be cancer." and "we might have to take out the ovary along with the cyst." Hearing all this made me very scared and caused my blood pressure to go up. I prayed and prayed that the cyst would disappear on it's own and for the ovary to be saved. That was my prayer. I do not remember ever being so scared. But I kept praying my rosary and God and the Blessed Mother took care of me. I had the surgery on February 12th, both cysts on the ovaries were removed, the cysts were benign, and the ovaries were saved. But that day God gave me another trial. The trial of being told I had severe endometriosis, massive adhesians, the cysts were endometriomas, and I might be infertile.

Still though, I think I was in denial because I thought "Oh well during the surgery they took out the cysts, cleaned up the endometriosis and adhesians so I probably will be able to get pregnant soon." Nope. Again that didn't happen. Several months have gone by and despite the fact that we know when my fertile days are, we still haven't been able to conceive. I think I really was in denial for several months, and a mourning period of my fertility. I can't believe that as of right now we are unable to conceive on our own and we might never have our own child. I mean, I'm the lady who loves children, started babysitting when I was thirteen, and I have been a daycare teacher for twenty years. I've always been asked by the parents of the children in my daycare classes "When are you going to have children? You will be a wonderful Mom someday!" ect. And now this has happened. Because of me and my stupid endometriosis, it seems that I am unable to conceive. It's just so hard to try to accept and believe. My heart and arms are longing for a child. I want to be a Mom so much and think I could be a good one. I know Ed really wants one too and held out hope for a long time, but now when I tell him when my fertile days are he doesn't seem to want to um, take advantage of them because he doesn't think that I'm really that fertile. I think he has given up hope. I feel so bad that I can't seem to give him a child. He is such a terrific husband. I know he would make a great Dad too.

We were hoping that this new doctor could help us with both the endometriosis as well as the infertility, but then the doctor told me on the phone that his oldest patient who was able to conceive was thirty nine, which I admit did burst my bubble.
I do appreciate the fact that he was honest with me. I am looking forward to my first appointment with this new doctor on Friday, August 1st. I am praying he will be able to look over my Creighton model charts, offer some advice and suggestions, treat the endometriosis, and run some tests to help me feel better. This endometriosis is pretty painful especially during my time of the month and during my fertile period too. At times it feels like my ovaries are doing jumping jacks. Ouch!

I am still going to pray my rosary and ask the Blessed Mother's intercession for a miracle if it's His will for us. I do know that God can make miracles happen and nothing is impossible with God! If you could offer up some prayers for us on Friday that this doctor can help us, I would really appreciate it and thank you!

Acceptance Prayer

My Jesus, I ask you with all my heart for your love. Only your love will help me to accept my sufferings and carry my cross in such a way that I may be your true follower.

O Lord Jesus, graciously accept the sacrifice of my sufferings for the temporal and eternal salvation of myself and my loved ones.

Jesus, my dearest Lord and God, my Teacher and my Redeemer, have mercy on me.

Most Holy Spirit, be my Consoler.

-St. John Neumann


May God Bless you all and thanks for reading!

I wonder, how are others who love children as much as I do and have a strong desire to be mothers in their hearts who are given the cross of endometriosis and infertility able to accept this cross and satisfy their desires to have children and be mothers? I'd love to hear from you!

Maria Therese

Monday, July 21, 2008

Good news and not so good news....need prayers please!

Well, this wasn't supposed to be a blog about me, but I did want to share this. The good news is that we finally found a good NaProTechnology Medical Consultant in our state trained in the Creighton Fertility Method. He called me tonight, asked me a lot of questions, gave me some good advice, and told me he can help treat my endometriosis without using birth control or Lupron and try to help us treat the infertility without using any technologies to try to concieve a child outside of the marriage act, which was a BIG concern to us (As much as we want children, we never want to do anything that will offend God or cause us to lose Heaven.) We have a tentative appointment on August 1st.

The not so good news though is that he told me straight out that his oldest patient with endometriosis who was able to have children was 39 and he recommended getting rid of Ed's cat due to my allergies and asthma! Ed is pretty fond of that cat. It is his buddy. Poor Ed!

<----will be 42 on August 2nd so I guess our dream of someday having a child of our own is fading fast and we will need to look more into adoption or foster care (We've already attended a meeting at Catholic Charities, but it is quite expensive to adopt and they said you have to be married for three years!)

I am feeling very hopeful that this doctor can help us treat the endometriosis because it's pretty painful and over the counter meds like Midol do not help very much!

If you could pray that this doctor will be able to help us and acceptance of God's will for us, we would really appreciate it. Thanks!

P.S. Even though the doctor told us the chances of us being able to have our own child are pretty slim, I'm still going to continue praying the rosary, to St. Anne, St. Gianna, ect. for a miracle! Remember, NOTHING is impossible with God - He CAN do anything!

Love,
Maria

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Fatima Prayers


Prayers Taught By the Angel of Peace

The apparitions of the Blessed Virgin Mary in 1917 at Fatima, Portugal were preceded by the apparition of an angel who presented himself as the Angel of Peace.

In the spring of 1916, the angel said to the three children: "Do Not be afraid, I am the Angel of Peace; pray with me." The angel knelt down, forehead to the ground, and recited, three times, this prayer:

My God, I believe, I adore, I hope and I love you. I ask forgiveness for those who do not believe, do not adore, do not hope, and do not love you.

In the autumn of 1917 the angel brought them Holy Eucharist. He raised the chalice and the host, which remained suspended above him, then bowing down to the ground near the children, he asked them to join in reciting three times the following prayer:

Most Holy Trinity, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, I adore you profoundly. I offer you the most precious body, blood, soul, and divinity of Our Lord Jesus Christ, present in all the tabernacles of the world, in reparation for the outrages, sacrileges, and indifference with which he is offended. Through the infinite merits of his most Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I beg of you the conversion of poor sinners.

Prayer Taught By Mary

"When you are offering personal sacrifices, suffers, penances, say:"

O My Jesus, I offer this for love of you, for the conversion of sinners, and in reparation for sins committed against the Immaculate Heart of Mary.

An Act of Consecration To the Immaculate Heart of Mary

O Virgin of Fatima, Mother of Mercy, Queen of Heaven and Earth, Refuge of sinners, we now consecrate ourselves to your Immaculate Heart. We consecrate to you our hearts, our souls, our bodies, our families, our country and all that we have.

So that this consecration be really effective and lasting, we renew today our baptismal vows and those of our Confirmation. We commit ourselves to living as good Christians, faithful to the Commandments of God and His Church, and faithful to the Pope's teaching. We will receive the Holy Eucharist, pray the Rosary, honor the first Saturday of the month and, especially, pray for the conversion of sinners.

We also promise, O Holy Virgin, to devote ourselves wholeheartedly to the spreading of this devotion and this consecration to your Immaculate Heart and, with your intercession, to hasten the coming of the reign of Jesus, your adorable Son and our Savior, in our hearts and in the world. Amen.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

The Fifteen Promises of Mary to Christians who Recite the Rosary


Thanks to everyone for visiting and your kind comments! I really appreciate them!

I'd like to start off by sharing the following with you in the hopes it will inspire you and encourage you to pray the Rosary!

The Fifteen Promises of Mary to Christians Who Recite the Rosary

* Whoever shall faithfully serve me by the recitation of the rosary, shall receive signal graces.
* I promise my special protection and the greatest graces to all those who shall recite the rosary.
* The rosary shall be a powerful armor against hell, it will destroy vice, decrease sin, and defeat heresies.
* It will cause virtue and good works to flourish; it will obtain for souls the abundant mercy of God; it will withdraw the heart of men from the love of the world and its vanities, and will lift them to the desire of eternal things. Oh, that souls would sanctify themselves by this means.
* The soul which recommend itself to me by the recitation of the rosary, shall not perish.
* Whoever shall recite the rosary devoutly, applying himself to the consideration of its sacred mysteries shall never be conquered by misfortune. God will not chastise him in His justice, he shall not by an unprovided death; if he be just he shall remain in the grace of God, and become worthy of eternal life.
* Whoever shall have a true devotion for the rosary shall not die without the sacraments of the Church.
* Those who are faithful to recite the rosary shall have during their life and at their death the light of God and the plenitude of His graces; at the moment of death they shall participate in the merits of the saints in paradise.
* I shall deliver from purgatory those who have been devoted to the rosary.
* The faithful children of the rosary shall merit a high degree of glory in heaven.
* You shall obtain all you ask of me by the recitation of the rosary.
* All those who propagate the holy rosary shall be aided by me in their necessities.
* I have obtained from my Divine Son that all the advocates of the rosary shall have for intercessors the entire celestial court during their life and at the hour of death.
* All who recite the rosary are my son, and brothers of my only son Jesus Christ.
* Devotion of my rosary is a great sign of predestination.


(Given to St. Dominic and Blessed Alan) Imprimatur: Patrick J. Hayes DD Archbishop of New York)

Monday, July 14, 2008

Welcome!

My name is Maria Therese and I am an almost 42 year old Catholic wife devoted to the Blessed Mother and Her Rosary. The purpose of this blog is to encourage others to pray the Rosary and spread devotion to the Blessed Mother and the Rosary. God through the Blessed Mother and the Rosary has given me many graces, gifts, and blessings in my life.

Here is just one example of a blessing that God and the Blessed Mother have given me by praying the Rosary:

My husband Ed at the Shrine of St. Anne in Quebec during our honeymoon in June 2007!

Thank you God, the Blessed Mother, and the Rosary for answering my prayers and giving me such a wonderful Catholic gentleman for my husband!

May God Bless you.
MT :)