Saturday, May 14, 2011

if you ever hear of any adoption opportunities in the New England area?

If you ever come across an opportunity where you hear a birth mother is looking for a family for her child in New England, could you please let me know?

I am 44, married for almost for 4 years, and husband and I have been trying for almost four years with no success. I have been diagnosed three years ago with endometriosis stage four. I've had two surgeries so far. My fertility signs have been diminishing and I'm now skipping periods. The doctors say I have low or no chance of achieving a pregnancy of my own. My only hope for a child is through a miracle - adoption!

I have been a teacher at a daycare for tweenty three years. I adore children and always wanted my own. My heart and arms ache to hold a child!

Prayers always welcome! I feel like I have been praying to be blessed with a child forever and so far my prayers haven't been answered. I don't know why. I just don't understand it.

You may email me at: marialehan4608 at AOL dot com.

Thank you!

May God Bless you and your beautiful family!

Love,
Maria In Mass
prayrosary4life@aol.com

Monday, March 21, 2011

Mourning the fact we will probably never be able to have a biological child.

I think right now I am mourning the fact (due to the endometriosis stage four and that in August I will be forty five years old) that it is extremely doubtful that Ed and I will be able to have a biological child. It is so difficult to want something so much and not be able to have it. We've been praying for a child for almost the four years we've been married with no success. I think we've tried just about everything - diet, exercise, two surgeries, fertility specialists, ect. Nothing has worked.

I try so hard to be a good Catholic and pray for God's will to be done and offer up this suffering for sinners, the souls in purgatory, ect. but it's not easy. Sometimes trying to pray this way, I end up in tears and can't finish.

I think the only way I'll ever be able to be a Mommy is through adoption. I am open to adoption, but I really wanted to do the whole biological Mommy thing - experience the joy of carrying a child in my womb, giving birth, nursing, ect. Right now I am trying to mourn the fact we will probably not be able to have a biological child and start taking steps towards adoption.

Could you please pray for me? Thank you so much! I'm really having a difficult time with this fact. The only thing that consoles me is praying the rosary, praying for others, the hugs, kisses, and "I Love You's" I receive from the young preschool children I teach, and spending time with my six year old nephew and his almost four year old twin sisters. A couple of years ago my brother (Dad to my nephew and neices) said the nicest thing to me. He told me he would share his kids with me! Wasn't that so sweet? :) It really meant so much to me!

May God Bless you!

Love,
Maria

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

sensitive to gluten/wheat maybe?

I just read a very interesting post on another lovely Catholic lady's blog. This dear lady also suffers from endometriosis and infertility, just like I do. She wrote how the doctors she has visited tested her and her tests came out that she had strong sensitivities to dairy and wheat. What I found most interesting though was how this lady mentioned that she used an Aveeno skin care product with wheat in it and it caused her face to become very inflamed. This is very interesting to me because:

1) All my life I have been unable to use certain products on my skin. Some of these products had all natural ingrediants and caused my facial skin to become very red and irritated.

2) I was diagnosed in my twenties with sebborheic dermatitis on my scalp. I recently read in a book how sebborheic dermatitis could be caused by gluten sensitivity. When I read this, I remembered years ago how I used a conditioner using wheat protein in it, the next thing I knew my scalp started breaking out in pimples, and I developed an infection called folliculitis. I was told by my primary physician at the time and later the dermatologist, how this was caused by my hair follicles becoming clogged. I was recommended to start using dandruff shampoo (which never really worked for me) and not to use any conditioner. But now I'm wondering, hey could the root of this whole scalp problem really be a possible gluten allergy?

3) After making this discovery, I have been going through all my skin and hair products and giving away anything that lists wheat as an ingrediant.I have also been taking B complex vitamins. My scalp is now feeling a lot better.

I also ordered some wonderful vitamins from Vitacost.com which have caused my cycle to return to normal, cause a decrease in my cramps, and make me feel a lot happier and healthier! I still hope and pray to be able to become a Mother either naturally or through adoption. I am still praying every day for that intention. Could you PLEASE pray for this intention too? I NEED a LOT of prayers - a miracle! I know that God CAN do it if He wants to! I recently prayed the novena to Our Lady of Good Success and one of the evenings I prayed that novena I had a dream that my husband and I were adopting a little girl. Maybe God's will for my husband and I revealed in a dream? Could be. I did wake up the following morning feeling very happy about the dream. It is very rare for me to dream about fertility, pregnancy, babies, or adoption in my dreams. This was a very rare dream. (When I was single with no prospects in sight I used to have dreams sometimes that I was pregnant. Whenever I had those dreams, I would wake up feeling very relieved. Why? Because I think my secret fear was 1) I might never get married and 2) Once married, I would have some kind of fertility issue and be unable to get pregnant. And guess what? I was blessed with meeting the husband of my prayers, but my second fear did come true!).

More on these vitamins in the next post! Stay tuned!

May God Bless you!
Maria